If you thought I had given up on this blog….you were wrong.
But at the same time, let me apologize for my lack of posts in the past couple of months. In my professional opinion it takes time, effort, and inspiration to write an effective blog…and I have not had all three of those things at the same time in a long, long while. I may not even have them now, just to warn you.
I had a really, really messed up dream last night. Not scary or anything, it was just deeply troubling. And you know how dreams seem so real at the time…I woke up and for the first seven seconds or so I was truly upset. And I'm going to try and explain it to you, although it may seem kind of cryptic…
You know, this kind of thing has happened to me before, but in reality. It's like you think you know someone really really well…you're really close, you share secrets, they're on YOUR side. And then something happens and it blows you out of the water. You never would have expected it. It's like after all of these conversations telling you otherwise you've realized that you can put absolutely no weight into their words, because almost always their actions prove otherwise. It sucks, cause after that you realize that you can never trust that person again, at least for a very long time.
In my dream, I had a boyfriend. And we were very close, as you would imagine a boyfriend and girlfriend to be. There was some random girl, I guess, who was in love with him. And she was evil…or something like that. Nevertheless, something was wrong with her. And he told me how insane she was, and all of that. Then it seemed there was some sort of time lapse in the dream…and somehow I found out that they were actually close friends. They hung out all the time and were always flirting with each other. He wondered why I would ever have a problem with it, and I was so stunned I didn't even have a response.
So I'm sitting here with my hair wrapped up like a turban, realizing that more than likely no one cares about any of this. But hey….it's my blog J
